Blissfully Alone

As i fly across the serene blue sky,

I feel the wind blowing hard on my face,

I feel hollow and light from within.

My heart soars and my wings lift up.

Though i sail alone, i feel blessed;

The wind roars, i feel i'm in heaven;

I roam wildly assuming there's no end.

Little did i know then, things are bound to end.

Before i realized i was in the heart of a storm.

I knew i was falling into danger.

I desperately tried to fly away from it,

I tried hard to protect myself;

How do i fight nature,

How do i fight the all-encompassing, all-knowing God.

In the endless rain, i sailed on,

I thought nothing about my destination;

I didnt know where I was headed,

I closed my eyes, trusted my heart and flew with the rain.

Strangely my heart seemed to know the route to safety,

I opened my eyes, and saw the most spectacular rainbow,

I felt blessed to be alive to see it,

As drops of rain still drip from my feathers,

I knew i had conquered something greater than death.

I had conquered a part of myself,

My happiness knew no bounds.

Today i was a free bird, free to be myself,

I let go off all bondage, i felt lighter than ever
My heart tells me, everything is bound to change..

If heaven be on Earth, it did be here and now.

Challenge

I have always wondered what best challenges me.

After continious trial and error with myself, i realized, the only one who can challenge my abilities is myself. Irrespective of the end result, you win.

The fact that you challenge yourself is a way upwards in the scale of improvement.

Simple things like consciously doing certain things, like maybe being quiet for as long as you can; or controlling your thoughts; controlling your behaviour in a situation.

A human mind is always moulded to behave in certain ways in a given situation. As kids, we never exert restrain on our emotions or our behaviour. If imposed, the natural reaction is to oppose it. One of my teachers once said "Forbidden fruit is the sweetest"!!
I wonder why is the mind conditioned to behave this way.

Through time, our mind gets adjusted to a certain set of behaviours. We tend to react in the same way given the same situations.

The challenge lies in refraining from doing things expected. The thrill of surprising yourself is amazing in itself.

Each time i get angry, i try to resist the temptation of pouting and displaying my anger. I try to be silent, trying to listen to myself.

I have learnt viewing your own life objectively like an outsider helps in seeing things differently. When you are in the storm-centre, it can be hard to rationalize things. It helps to view things outside of the happenings.

So all in all, next time try to challenge yourself in whatever ways you like.:)

That's it for now :)

Whose life is it by the way!

To start off, i couldn't help choose this topic, this is all that which would come to mind :P

My colleague once said, "Its God's responsibility, we just assume it is ours" :)

How profound!

I was gawking like a fool just too amazed by the intensity of the statement.

If spirituality is to be believed in its truest sense, then isnt God supposed to protect us always.

Why do we assume, we need to be responsible for everything that we do.

If everything is already predefined, then what are we striving for!

Why don't we just sit back and watch the show instead.

Spirituality talks about Karma or Duty one is bound by in this universe. This is so confusing. Why would you want to do your duty if things were all pre-decided.

Why does mythology always insist on following and not on questioning, or is it our interpretation.

So the next time someone would insist on being responsible, i would surely give it a second thought ;)

For all i know, irrespective of what i do, it's God's responsibility.:)

On the same note, i wonder how does prayer work. Does it change our destinies or is it just that we believe it to.

All in all, i feel God is just a state of mind. A faith, a belief which would comfort us, strengthen us.

It gives us hope without which the world wouldnt be what it is today.

---Urs Meanderer :)
 21/10/09